Healing my Relationship with Money

 Money had never been an issue for me; that was not the problem.

In a middle-class family where I grew up, there was always enough. I also worked as a recruiter for a hedge fund as an adult and had great success with cryptocurrency investments.

However, for some reason, I felt constricted around money.

I constantly sought for more money, feared losing what I had, planned ahead three steps, and made calculated financial judgements.

Although it didn't always feel nice, I thought I was being clever and savvy.

I had assumed I had the whole topic of money pretty well under control, but my curiosity or intuition led me to enrol in Karen McAllister's Money Coaching programme.

I became aware of how much tightness, fear, and greed I had internalised towards money as we got started working together.

One of my main objectives as an American was to accumulate as much wealth as I could as rapidly as possible in order to retire early. But after working with Karen, I saw that this was a manifestation of a negative attitude toward and relationship with work—the belief that labour is fundamentally unfulfilling and must be tedious.

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In summary, my relationship to money lacked sufficient fluidity, flexibility, or generosity.